Out Of Nowhere

Work has been crazy these last couple weeks. When I started this job my original intention was to go to work, do my job, then go home with my pay check. I intended to stay under the radar as much as possible. Not goof off, but just do my work to the best of my ability, and no more. After my last job I had grown tired of caring.

Somehow things didn’t work out quite as planned. Suddenly I found myself in the position of leadership. I didn’t really want it but I didn’t exactly refuse it either. So here I am, at the helm. Crazy time has descended upon us and I’m still trying to shepherd my small group to the finish line.

At times like this stress levels can elevate. I know our whole group has felt it but everyone is pressing on as best they can. But I try not to let it get to me, I know I’m giving an honest effort as are my crew. I try to remind them of that.

Today it was brought to my attention that a young lady in my care was feeling an extra batch of stress. I was asked to give her a bit of time to regain her composure then go talk to her. I was told the reason she was upset was because she was afraid that she wasn’t going to be able to finish her task on time and consequently I would get in trouble.

She wasn’t afraid of getting in trouble. She wasn’t afraid that I’d be mad. She was afraid that I would get in trouble. I was, and continue to be, touched beyond measure. I was rendered momentarily speechless. I can’t even begin to describe my feelings upon hearing that. I felt I’d been handed an unexpected gift of colossal sweetness, while feeling the guilt of knowing it was at someone else’s expense.

It’s amazing how days can just string together in an endless pile of carbon copies of themselves until, out of nowhere, a moment comes along that will last a lifetime.